What Living With a GI Condition Taught Me About Productivity, Mental Health, and Showing Up
There is a version of my story that looks clean from the outside. The podcast that drops every Tuesday without fail. The coaching business. The content. The person who shows up and talks about mindset and resilience and building something that matters.
And then there is the version nobody sees.
I have been managing a chronic and progressive GI condition since I was twenty-five. I also have damage to my spine that results in poor nerve innervation to my gut, which compounds everything the condition is already doing. Over the last year the flares have gotten longer, more complicated, and harder to recover from. I stopped hosting events. I stepped back from in-person personal training. I lost muscle I spent years building because I was fatiguing too quickly to sustain the workouts that used to be non-negotiable for me. And I got quieter. More isolated. Not by choice, by necessity.
Episode 109 is the most personal episode I have ever recorded. Because I think there are people reading this right now who are managing something similar in silence. Who are pushing through symptoms and calling it discipline. Who are performing for everyone around them while their body is fighting a war nobody can see.
This post and this episode are for you.
“The most powerful thing I can do is tell the truth. And the truth is that showing up with a chronic condition while building something meaningful is one of the hardest and most invisible things a person can do.”
What the Gut Brain Connection Actually Is
Most people think gut health is a digestion conversation. It is not. Your gut and your brain are in constant two-way communication through the gut-brain axis, a direct line of signals running between your digestive system and your central nervous system through the vagus nerve, through hormones, and through your immune system.
Your gut produces approximately 90 percent of your body’s serotonin. Not your brain. Your gut. Serotonin is the neurotransmitter most associated with mood, emotional regulation, and that baseline sense of wellbeing. When your gut is inflamed, damaged, or dysregulated, that serotonin production is compromised. And you feel it everywhere. Not just in your stomach. In your head, your mood, your ability to think clearly, and your sense of yourself.
For me this is not theoretical. Spinal damage has resulted in poor nerve innervation to my gut, meaning the communication between my nervous system and my digestive system is compromised at a structural level. The downstream effects of that go far beyond what most people would picture when they think of a gut condition.
Brain Fog: When Your Gut Steals Your Sharpest Hours
Gut-related brain fog is one of the most frustrating symptoms of a chronic GI condition because it is invisible, variable, and makes you feel like you are betraying yourself.
Chronic gut inflammation creates systemic inflammation that crosses the blood-brain barrier and directly affects cognitive function. When your gut is in a flare, your brain is inflamed. The words that will not come. The decisions you cannot make with confidence. The hours at your desk that produce almost nothing. This is not laziness. This is physiology.
I have had days in the middle of a flare where I sat at my desk for hours and produced almost nothing. Where I recorded and deleted and recorded again because nothing was landing. The old version of me would have called that failure. The truth is my gut was running the show.
“Stop calling it laziness. Your body is working harder than anyone around you knows.”
Sleep: How Your Gut Is Destroying Your Recovery
Your gut produces melatonin as well as serotonin, meaning gut dysregulation affects your sleep cycles before you even close your eyes. If your serotonin is compromised your melatonin production is compromised. You cannot optimize your sleep environment and expect full results if the system producing the hormones you need to sleep is broken.
And then there is the physical reality of managing a GI condition at night. The discomfort. The urgency. The pain during a flare that wakes you at two in the morning. The anticipatory anxiety before you even lie down. Disrupted sleep increases gut inflammation. Increased gut inflammation disrupts sleep further. It is a loop that feeds itself.
I have had stretches during bad flares where I was not getting more than a few hours of broken sleep a night for weeks at a time. And I was still showing up. Not because pushing through is the answer but because when something matters deeply you find a way to keep going. What I know now is that rest is not failure. For a body managing a chronic progressive condition rest is the most productive thing you can do.
Mood, Anxiety, and the Emotional Weight of an Unpredictable Body
When 90 percent of your serotonin is produced in a compromised gut your emotional baseline is physiologically affected. This is not weakness. This is chemistry. And no amount of positive thinking closes that gap on its own.
The anxiety of a progressive condition is its own particular kind of heavy. Not knowing how today will feel. Whether your body will cooperate with the plans you made. Whether this flare will be three days or three weeks. That unpredictability is exhausting in a way that is almost impossible to explain to someone who has not lived it.
Over the last year I isolated significantly. I stopped putting myself in situations that required me to be at full capacity for extended periods. And I want to name what that cost me, community, energy, the parts of my work that light me up most. Pulling back was not failure. It was triage. And there is no shame in surviving a hard season by doing what you need to do.
“You are allowed to grieve what this condition has taken from you while simultaneously being proud of everything you have built through it. Both things are true at the same time.”
Building a Life That Includes It
The biggest mindset shift I have made in the last year is this. I am not building a life in spite of my condition. I am building a life that includes it. And those are fundamentally different approaches with fundamentally different outcomes.
Building in spite of means fighting your body constantly, pushing through every flare, holding yourself to the same standard regardless of what is happening internally, and measuring your output on a good day against a bad day and calling the difference failure. That approach is unsustainable. I know because I lived it for years.
Building a life that includes it means designing your days around your energy. Building systems that work when you can only give 60 percent so you are not starting from zero on the hard days. Being honest with yourself about where your real capacity lies without making that honesty mean something about your worth.
For me that looks like protecting Fridays like they are the most important meeting of my week. Because they are. I batch content, record episodes, and get ahead of everything so that no matter how the week presents itself I am already ready. Good day or bad day. Flare or not. That is not luck. That is living with intention.
If You Are Managing Something Similar
You are not behind. You are not weak. You are not failing. You are managing something that takes more energy than most people around you will ever understand and you are doing it while still showing up for the things that matter most to you.
The adjustments you have made are not losses. They are evidence of someone building sustainably rather than spectacularly and then collapsing. Your body is not the obstacle. The belief that you should perform the same regardless of what it is managing is the obstacle.
Keep going. But at the pace your body allows. That is not compromise. That is wisdom. And a body that is heard is a body that can keep going.
“You are doing something remarkable inside a body that is working harder than anyone knows. That deserves to be honored — not just pushed through.”
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